Study Session In June

written June 16, 2009

helplessly drinking coffee

hoping this exam will take itself

hanging on to a dream

I wish I had as a youth

a dream of scholarly Saturday’s

spent sipping iced sencha

outside the library

as summer girls wear halter tops

and dance to the soothing sound

of a wanna be hippie’s guitar

and the long-haired, hacky-sacking skateboarders

crack smiles at the new crop

of freshmen touring campus,

and i sit on the grass

smoking American Spirits,

reading Dylan Thomas

with this radical gal

that digs my tattoos

and drinks her whiskey straight…

But this exam still won’t take itself

and it’s too beautiful a day

to be spent indoors daydreaming

and halfheartedly studying

helplessly drinking coffee

with 3 packets of aspartame

and skim milk

because I have body dysmorphia

and I’m having thoughts

of sun-soaked women

lounging on the common

on this gorgeous summer day

as i read over the text

again and again and again

and still haven’t a clue

as to what I just read

why can’t it just be raining, goddammit!

why can’t these underclassmen

have more clothing on

and will the nutrasweet give me cancer,

and why did I take summer courses,

and why isn’t this coffee working

or that double shot of espresso

from an hour ago

as i try to work my way through

this miserable mid-June study session

fueled by coffee

and thoughts of my name

falling off the Dean’s list

and more coffee,

hot or iced

or room temperature,

it’s all alright by me

and the clock says

t-minus two and a half hours

until my mind explodes

with the blissful bullshit

that will hopefully be enough

for my dear professor

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